this is really strange to me ... to be typing my thoughts & feelings to a completely unprotected environmnet of people ... or even just out into wide open air & space. i'm a 38 yr old woman who has suddenly come to realize that ... i'm jus' not like everyone else ! i dont "get them" & "they dont get me". i've taken the tests & yeah ... i fit the grid :-) but ... what now ??? how do you function in a society that has absolutely no understanding as to what is going on inside your head & how do you manage to become a successful, independant, adult ...
in a completely absurd world that makes ya wanna crawl underneath the bed & hide ? how do ya keep them from takin advantage of you ?how is it that we can be so meticulous & brilliant about so many different things ... and yet somehow be completely incapable of successfully performing menial day-to-day tasks ? i'm tryin' to "get this" !!! all these years ... everyone has been lookin at me with this look of bewilderment ... wondering what the hell is goin through this girls mind ... obviously making me think that somethin is "wrong with me" ... and now i find that ... " i'm jus wired differently" ??????
what now ??? i dont "think about" the same stuff that everyone around me thinks about. their converstaions seem shallow or trivial. i feel bad for saying that or even thinking it ... but it is the truth :-) i've been isolating for a very long time ... but i'm a christian ... and i've been praying that god would lead me, guide me & help me. i prayed that he would send some people who i could relate to & who may be able to help me. i hope this turns out to be a step in the right direction. thx 4 ur time ... bless u ! ps: this blog is very new & pretty confusing to me ... so if ya respond ... please note that i dont know what half these options mean/do or even how to use them. i assume that i come back to this page & check "my blogs" ... somehow ... hope i'm right :-) again ... thx for listening & / or responding, if you so choose.
peace out !