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In the beginning

There I was, age 34, and pregnant with my third child.  I secretly, desperately hoped for a girl.  I had two boys already, and this was my last chance for a mini-me.  Not that I wouldn’t have been happy with a boy.  I truly would have loved and enjoyed him as much as my other boys.  However, I had visions of all things pink, Barbie dolls, baby dolls, dollhouses, smocked dresses, and shiny black Mary Janes.  I also had my share of worries.  I was 34, after all, and I had been so lucky to have given birth to two healthy babies, and I guess I thought I was tempting fate by having another.  I work in special education, so I knew the risks.  Not only were there genetic disorders, but the scary Autism Spectrum Disorder that had become so prevalent in recent years.  I had worked with some children with autism by that time, but not many, and not on a daily basis.  I was still under the assumption that 1 out of 100 kids born with autism was a pretty low chance, and I knew that boys were more likely to have it than girls, which gave me yet another reason to hope for a girl. (oh, the irony!)

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