I am Still Alive

shootingstars's picture

We had to take shelter. A huge line of storms. They say a mini tornado alley was right over us. 18 tonado reports total. Several in my area, one on the other side of town. Spencer is flooded. Of course our building has no basement. Me, my mother, Michael, my neighbor, her two kids were downstairs in a neighbors who has a huge closes, along with her, her two, her roomie and her parents. I hate that you cannot hear the sirens inside our apartments barely, which for the record sounded 7 seperate times.

Tell me, am I evil. When we took shelter,  I sent an email from my phone to my son's father. "If the tornado hits we love you. We just took shelter" and I have no plans on telling him we are ok. In fact not putting up any blogs or logging into messenger. I do not care if he worries or not. Is that evil?

In southern Iowa a tornado hit a boy scout camp. 40 injuries, 4 fatalities. They knew it was coming but had no way to take much for shelter. That is so sad...I hope everyone will stop a moment and offer a silent prayer.

I'm very glad you got

Perseverence's picture

I'm very glad you got through such horrible weather unscathed.  Tornados scare the begeezes out of me!!  We get a few up here (in Canada) now and then, but I've only had to hit the basement once.  About five years ago, we had a funnel cloud form right over the house.  Thankfully, it did not touch down.  It was wierd though watching the clouds at the front of the house move in the opposite direction to the clouds at the back of the house.  By the time I got the dog to go downstairs with me, the danger had passed.  If it had touched down, I doubt I would be blogging here today.  Hopefully, the worst is over with the storms over Iowa now.

I am terrified of tornadoes.

shootingstars's picture

I am terrified of tornadoes. My mother was not very bright when she told me that when I was little we slept through the sirens once, and one touched down 2 miles away. Now at night when I hear loud winds, I freak out...

Thunderstorms in general

Perseverence's picture

Thunderstorms in general always freak me out (and the dog as well).  She tries to hide under the sofa (no small task for a 70 to 80-pound mutt).  When the funnel cloud began to form, convincing my son to head for the downstairs bathroom was no problem at all; but I just couldn't get the dog to get its head out from under the sofa and come downstairs.  Hubby wasn't home or he probably would have been outside snapping pictures - lol.

I took some video of all of

shootingstars's picture

I took some video of all of us while we were waiting to all dive into the closet. Actually trying to convert it onto my new mp3 player as we speak. None of the clouds were interesting here. Of course I really did not get out to look.

What's it like out there

WyattsMom's picture

What's it like out there today in your neck of the woods?  Was your mom able to go in to work today?

 

Ma works nights, and had

shootingstars's picture

Ma works nights, and had last night off. Spencer seems back to normal today. We had an inch of water in the back yard lasy night, and it is already gone. The river is still in normal levels (ok actually we are used to it flooding all the way out to the parks along the sides, but it is only a few feet out of banks as opposed to several hundred feet) If she does not go to work tonight, she only has herself to blame.

I think the evil thing... I

shootingstars's picture

I think the evil thing... I think I took the advice from my neighbors seriously. Believe me, it is not forgiveness issues, I have given my son's father more than enough 2nd chances over the last 4 years. Actually more if you go back before Michael. I always end up forviging him and letting him back into our lives, saying he cares, then going home and never picking up the phone. Then one day he hits me on messenger and I am weak.  I think the main reason I do not want to email him now is because of the L word I used. I was scared, in midst of an anxiety attack, and 5 kids all 4 and younger. I have never said it to his face, and only a handful of times in the last 6 years over emails.

I must say I am surprised... I figured the most replies would be about the boy scouts. It is terribly sad. Here in Iowa there are already many chain texts messages and forwards going around asking for prayers.

Well, okay, maybe you were a

WyattsMom's picture

Well, okay, maybe you were a teensy bit mean, but I think that whole forgiveness thing is often a load of crap.  It just opens people up to be victimized one more time.  It's one thing to "forgive" someone once or twice, but there comes a point when "we ain't gonna take it no more."

The thing about the Boy Scouts is so horrible and sad that I'm sticking my head in the sand and trying not to think about it.  Is that evil?  Nah, I'm just trying to stay sane.  If it becomes too personal, I'll be crying all day.  

You know there is a saying (cold as though it may sound):  One death is a tragedy.  A thousand deaths is a statistic.

turmangirl  Hi Wm...When I

turmangirl's picture

turmangirl  Hi Wm...When I suggested forgiveness...believe me, I did NOT say welcome him back in and trust him...You can forgive someone, for your own health and well being, but NEVER interact with them again.  Forgiveness is a choice...just like love.  It heals the forgiver.   Believe me.....I have had to do my share of it over the years.   Thing is...I have had to be the one being forgiven also...We ALL have.

About the boyscouts...So sad for their families.  Just proves the point about telling someone you love them. Those parents never thought for a moment that they wouldn't have their little boys back in their arms soon.  I pray for peace of mind for them all.   

turmangirl  Bless your

turmangirl's picture

turmangirl  Bless your heart!   that must have been awful!  Don't worry about the L word...remember this..If you feel the love, it is best to say it.   Might have been the last opportunity you got....fortunately, there will be other times.  Just be happy without him....if he wanders back in , you won't have wasted any time being miserable without him. 

turmangirl  Hi...Glad you

turmangirl's picture

turmangirl  Hi...Glad you and Michael are ok!   You asked if we thought you evil....Not evil..just seem to be having forgiveness issues..These things build up walls..If you don't want that...follow up with a little "we're ok"..short and sweet.  This will free you...have a blessed day.

I am so glad that you are

WyattsMom's picture

I am so glad that you are all OK!!!  And no, you're not evil!  We love ya!  Keep safe...we'll be thinking about you and you'll be in our prayers, of course!

You're not evil........,

Cindy's picture

You're not evil........, you're a chick lol.