David is one of those who if he wants more he will come out and say it. Our relationship drama has been going on 6 years.  Who knows maybe we are soulmates or maybe we are meant to be best friends or nothing at all. Just have not figure it out yet. It is sad, but he is the best choice I have made in guys, and the only one who actually espects my decisions. He was not all over me the last time he was here, and that visit was a week. I am really disappointed Michael barely gets 24 hours this time. If anything does happen, I am an adult and can only blame myself.

Right now my concern is not my own heart. It is my son's. If Michael gets hurt again, all bets are off. I have made my point that I am willing to cut him out if I need. As for finding my son another father, I do not feel comfortable with that. Right now I do not even date because being with a single mother is responsibility enough for a guy, but a mother of a child with special needs, that is alot of baggage for a guy to take on. I figure if I need to cut David out, it will be cut and dry. When Michael asks, I will explain simply that his dad lives far way and does not come to visit. I refuse to talk negatively about David, I figure he can make his own impressions on Michael without my help. My biological father once tried to accuse his exwife and my mother of brainwashing me. I refuse to ever have basis for that accusation to be made against me.

Anyways, am I the only one able to make comments lately?