Today went better than expected. David did show up. Michael met his sister. He was not overly jealous of his sister. He is not used to having to share his own things, and has been really sensitive lately. You can tell David is very close to his daughter. It does hurt but I guess there is nothing I can do. Turns out the reason he could not stay overnight was because when they all got back his dad would have to fire one of the other mechanics and it meant David had to work. I was still annoyed but nothign I can do, he works for a company owned by a friend of his dads so he is pretty much a slave.

He says he wants to be back down in 2 weeks, which would be his next weekend off. It depends on his check that week I guess, which means I probably will not know if he is coming or not until the boy knocks on my door.  I ignored him mostly at first, but as always the ice slowly melted. I noticed something. I did not feel that strong drive to be really close to him. It has weakened alot. He of course still likes to wrestle around and thinks he can tickle me into a good mood. I give in only because of my hatred of being tickled.  But Michael loves to get in and wrestle with both parents, and will start it on his own. Gotta love my kid. Maybe if we were not so pressed for time and every moment had to count I would feel that spark again, but I cannot say. I guess we will see in 2 weeks. I know I love him but the spark makes him tolerable sometimes.

I tried to keep my distance from his daughter (mainly out of respect to her mother and fear of geting attatched) but I am the person who loves up the toddler everyone hates. IDK I am just not a cold person when it comes to kids and animals.